Alone and pure

I am alone. Not physically, but mentally.

And it's been years since then. I don't really understand why no one could come into my space, my heart and link up with me. Is it me too hard to approach? Is it me who's closing the door? Or is it because no one realise what i am inside.

Honestly, i'm sick of being "superman" in front of people. Sometimes i wonder, why can't i make mistakes? Why can i be like the rest and show my weaknesses? .....................

There, lost my words again. Everytime when i wanted to share how i feel inside, i'm always stuck, knowing how people will response to all this by simply ignoring me and ask me not to think so much.

Am i thinking so much or i'm being too honest with myself?


I just watched this drama i'm currently after, . It's a Japanese drama about politics, yeah, it'd be kinda odd if you say i'm interested in politics, but what attracts me about this drama was never about politics. It's about how it reminds me of what i once was.

Pure.

Look around you, how many people could be like this in the world today? Are you yourself being a pure person?
Ok, then here comes all those response again, "You cannot be simple and pure today anymore, or you'll get cheated." "Humans are evil.." " That's how life is." Bla bla bla bla.... Why is it so easy for us to find reasons to remain the same and get polluted, but found it so hard to realise how simple we should be?

Is it true that living a pure life is a disadvantage? Or you just don't want to let go of things in your life?
We should change the world, not being changed by the world.

Sigh...... I miss the old me.