What do you see

WHAT DO YOU SEE WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME?

消失

暂时，

这里会是比较暗淡的颜色。

十二月，

不再是以往那样..

但改变的不是以往，

而是我自己

或许，太迟了吧

火车我已经上了，

旅程已经开始了，

下一站才有豆号，

不知道那时候大家会是怎样

现在，我会渐渐的，静静的走远

直到你们发现都是太晚的时候

我想，

可能到时我的世界会更加旷阔吧

我已经不知觉地习惯了一个人，

所以， 消失应该没有那么难吧。

原因，

太久没人问起，我也说不清楚了。

跟神摔跤的心情都没有，

接下来怎么样，先走着再看吧。

爱上爱上别人的人。

         


































很傻。


















却无法自拔。

你们不认识的我

不喜欢看爱情片，

因为里面的故事总是离我很远。


不喜欢被问爱情事，

因为讲来讲去都没人懂。


不喜欢去想喜欢谁，

因为喜欢人不如去喜欢狗猫。


不喜欢“尝试”去爱上谁，

因为才刚开始想多认识点，总是被踢到远远。


所以，

我比较喜欢iPad，
我比较喜欢一个人吃饭，走走
我比较喜欢跟孩子在一起

我也比较喜欢赚钱，
因为赚多多钱，就可以去很多地方，做很多事。

我不是爱钱，
只是钱，不会拒绝我的爱。

Lonely singing.

I was singing.....

and they were listening.... in mute

the silence... made me realize

how lonely i am..... that no one is there to sing with me..


It was full of noise & laughter before i entered.

everyone is singing with each other

but as i sang my first song.....

it was but a silence.


i took a quick leave after my 3rd song,
a leave that was taken in an awkward silence.


Because my voice surprised people?

that may be the optimistic side of view.

But no more....

after so many years...

only to realize that it's the other way around.


i am like a freak.

i may be somebody..... and that somebody means nobody is beside me.

nobody is in the same world i am in.

i have be walking alone for years

watching laughters as if i am of the same world...

what a deception i made to myself.....



Thank you... for making me realize...

that for all these 10 over years...

i still haven't got anyone, who is able to sing with me.. in my world.





Thus,

i am a very lonely man.

深处的微声

好像，
站在辽阔的路上，
两边的地平线，
两旁的草地，
云蓝背后的太阳，
照射着荒漠的思路，

我始终摸不透，
爱情究竟是怎么样的东西？

走走停停，
跌跌撞撞，
起起落落，

我领悟了的，究竟是什么？

爱一个人，究竟.....
你怎么确认你是爱着一个人呢？

理性吗？感性吗？
癫狂吗？合理吗？
思念吗？自然吗？

问题淹没了我的把握的回答。


一路走着路，
视野向前，

偶尔停顿，
仿佛有深处的微声：

我讨厌妳，
但我无法不喜欢妳，
却不敢说我爱妳。

说完。继续步行。

没有人像你一样爱我

每个人都在找爱...

在人来人往的交叉口，几次插身而过，

幸福仿佛在手，却又溜走，

反复在犯错，一错再错。



没有人...... 像袮一样爱我，
总是默默供应我

没有人...... 像袮一样疼我，
总是留下最好给我

没有人..... 像袮一样懂我，
总是选对时候出现

没有人..... 像袮一样爱我， 耶稣..


幸福，从跟随袮开始。

你选择留下什么?

部落格，
是一本厚厚的日记，
记载着回忆，
放映着过去。


你不会知道，
未来什么时候会翻开，
更不知道会被谁翻开

是黑是白，还是灰？
你的部落格用什么代表色？

今天，我拥有选择
可以写不开心的事，
但考虑了一番过后，
我选择不把它记载。

因为，
我听过一个故事，

把快乐的事写在石头上
让它流传千古年，
把不快的事写在沙滩上，
让它随风被吹散。

所以，
这个属于你的空间，
你会选择留下的是什么呢？

Life, and where it takes.

It's been a couple of years,

since those days are gone.

You never know where life could take you,

and that's the beauty of life.

Been trying to give as much as i could,

learning as deep as possible,

caring as long as possible,

for i understand that the great happiness,

comes from putting self aside for others.

Though there are times i felt lonely,

solitary has taken its seat beside me.

There are, times when i hope i am shared,

as i have kept this largest portion of love,

for the one i'll find her special.

But you can't just force it, can you?

So here i am,

still the same old me, for this part.

Even so,

I'm grateful for the other parts of me

no longer withheld by the same old.

Thus,

Another departing from the harbor

anxiously awaiting the next turn of life

for whatever it will lead to

I'm content enough to believe,

It's all in God's hand.