Who?

Tell me...
If i have nothing at all, and terrible in everything, who would really still love me?

Reward

Your Father who sees in secret will... reward you openly.
Matthew 6:4 NKJV

But if there's no reward, will you still give?

The Fear of Failure

I thought of this a few times.... Maybe it's true that i'm a guy who has a fear in failures... maybe because throughout my ages i've been failing too often, and maybe it's a nightmare for me when i realise that everytime i fail, i'll lose things and people would look down on me. It's a burden.... sometimes i just want to have someone who can look at me without expectations, and wouldn't change their views no matter how i am... Who will be like that? Filter that and all that was left was Jesus..... Yeah... only Him. But anyway thanks.. today's devotion kinda comforts my heart.

Learn from Me... and you will find rest for your souls.
Matthew 11:29 NIV

You'll notice that unlike us, Jesus didn't suffer from the fear of failure. That's because He never entertained the thought that He couldn't do something His Father had already assured Him He could. And He didn't suffer from a fear of lack either. Even though He lived a simple life He was responsible for supporting Himself and a team of others.
How did He do it? He prayed a lot, and stayed in sync with His Heavenly Father. Consequently He knew how to catch fish when they weren't biting, or find tax money in a fish's mouth when He needed it. (Yes, Jesus paid His taxes too!) Now God may not provide for you in exactly the same way, but He has promised to take care of you (1 Peter 5:7). Today Jesus is saying to you, "Come to Me… learn from Me… and you will find rest for your souls [emotions and mind]" (Matthew 11:29 NIV).
Stress is brought on by our need to know everything ahead of time - to be in control. Even after we pray and supposedly turn the situation over to God, we develop a 'backup plan' in case He doesn't handle things the way we think He should. Do you do that? You don't put your money into a bank then stay awake all night worrying about it, do you? Have at least that much confidence in God. Each time you begin the downward spiral of "How? What? When? Where?", stop and give it back to God. Not the little God of your understanding, but the big God whose track record speaks for itself, whose faithfulness never fails, and who has earned the right to ask you, "Is anything too hard for [Me]?" (Genesis 18:14 NIV). In other words - learn how to live like Jesus.

Carlos~ invited.

It's Easter's Day and guess what, Carlos brought his girlfriend to our church for the first time! Haha, Well, that's a happy thing for both of them, hopefully they can get along well and end up on the red carpet =P Then i can get to eat another Xi Jiu Le!!! Hahahahaha.....

Last Sunday was great, it's easter so it reminded me a lot of Jesus's sacrifice. Had this class with my students and shared with them about the importance and connection of Jesus's revival with us. I told them that if Jesus were only to die on the cross and did not resurrect, everything would be meaningless. But Jesus did revived!! And that means He've won! He've won the battle against death itself! Now that He have won against the power of death, He can save us from it! And that's is what our hope is all about! Jesus's victory!

That reminds me of the battle i'm going through each day. I may be falling for hundreds of times, but Jesus won, so He'll lead me to victory one day too. So i don't have to be afraid, I just have to wait with my faith =)

New Game I'm On: Gears of War!!

There's no need for description, it's a well-known title of all time!! Finally got my hands on it! Yeah!! =P

The game has superb graphics, intense gameplay, and cool characters. Love those heavy armored still design, and it definitely feels great to control a tough and hardcore soldier and bring down every piece of beast like enemies they called the Locust.

Hahaha, Recommended to gamers all around! Thumbs up!

Bla Bla

I took these picture when i was servicing at Curtin, haha. Could get a better quality if only i had a good camera with me. That afternoon i was told to be a driver for Aime Marketing, and so here i am, helping them to carry the photostate machine from the old building to the new Business school building. Man, that machine sure is heavy. =P

Anyway, that was Tuesday. On Thursday, i got my salary~~!!!! Hahaha. And i promised to sponsor Fei Wen for a dinner at A Ming there, and like a chinese phrase " gentleman one word, four horse hard to pursuit." LOL ( that was direct translating.)

So, we departed around 5.30pm.

We ordered 咸菜豆腐汤、沙拉豆腐，Ong菜，烧鸡叉烧. It all costs Rm22.4

This has always been my favourite dish

Wordless.

Have a great meal!

And here's my little brother, quietly took my phone and snap himself. 自恋狂,hahaha.

Content

"If you need anything let us know. We'll teach you how to live without it."

This is a phrase from a conversation between a hard-charged executive and a monastery monk who decided to spend a few days in it. It's very interesting isn't it? It is true that in our lives there were things that we couldn't easily let go, some people have a lot and some people have very few. But no matter what, God wants us to live in content. That doesn't mean we stop working hard for everything but instead, it means learning how to live with what God gave you. Most of our lives, we spend by getting what we want don't we? How many times did you give thanks to God about what you have today? And try to compare with how much you ask from God?

Well, it's really difficult for us to live like Paul... Me myself too. But i believe living in contentment is far more better than living with requests everyday, because

"Our hearts will never rest, until they rest in Thee."

Yeah... I guess that's one more thing i have to learn in life.

To Realise

God's promptings always line up with His Word - even when they don't line up with your ideas.

Today i had my usual daily devotion and saw this. Yeah, for me, it is a challenge and a leap of faith. I admit that for the past few years i've been ignoring God's voice over some things... could be most of the things. It's a shame i didn't listened to Him, if i were to, maybe today i'm not how i am now, i could be better not worse. I know... now is never too late to be turn back and i am turning back, it's... it's just that i lost things when i chose not to listen. Had my lessons..

It's been a long time but to me it's like a blink of an eye, everything happened so fast and i didn't even realise that my faith is getting weaker...Oh Father, thank You for not letting me go, if You were to let go, who knows how worse i could be.. without You, i am nothing.

It's always like that in my life, i fall then i realise important lessons. But i usually lost somehting along the way. I.... don't want to recall what i've lost, but i want to work it out now, i don't want to kept being like this, not anymore, the pain is overwhelming enough, enough for me to learn my lesson. Now, i'm praying hard everyday and do whatever i can to drive myself back on the road, despite how hard it's going to be, i must not fail. That's what i kept telling myself now. I remembered once there's this movie slogan that says like this

If you don't stand for something, you'll fall on everything

That's totally correct! It's what Jesus is trying to tell us too! In this world, if we don't stand our ground, our ground in God's truth, we'd fall on anything in this world. Works, Study, Money, Busy Lifes, etc, there's so many things out there is trying to pull us out from our ground everyday! That's why it's called the spiritual war, you can't see, but it's going on every single day.

I'm aware of that before but it is now then i realise how serious this could be. That's why i have to get up and humble down in front of God.. follow and listen to Him every moment... God Bless Everyone. =)

God's promptings always line up with His Word - even when they don't line up
with your ideas.

Today i

Look Back

To know whether you're currently on the right track, sometimes you just have to look back.

5/4/09

This Sunday, life as usual, busy, haha. In 2pm, have to attend the rehearsal for the evangelism night. Everything seems to come out now, lights, videos, stages.... honestly it's nice =) We've practiced for 3 hours, woohoo! everyone's tired lo~~~ But it all went well =) Hopefully that night will have many people commit themselves to Jesus. I also have invite A Shui to go, lol, hope he will get fired up inside too ^0^

Here's the look of the soldiers, hahaha...the helmet, LOL.

This is Qi Fu. He really seems to enjoying himself u there, haha.

And later after that, went to play badminton lo~~ Like usual. But this time i told myself to be strong, don't easily get frustrated when i'm losing. Yeah, i think i'm getting stressful recently because i'm starting to put high expectation on me, and don't know since when i don't like to lose. But they're voices inside of me telling me that i should get over this, and get rid of this uneccesary pressures. I kept praying while i play and ask God to give me the strength to make a change.
And out of usual, this time we have A Gu joining us~~ Man, he's pro.

He taught me a lot of stuffs that day and he really differs from all others. Back at last few times when i ask people some technics, their answer is either not satisfactory or total disappointment. Still got learn though. But when i ask a gu some stuffs, he just taught me nicely like a fatherly advise sort (maybe because he's a father now) and one thing he said really impacts me a lot. " Be patient, you will have to grow slowy when you play, like a baby, before he walks he'll have to learn how to stand up." He said. Yeah! =) Now i know how to face my problems! Wait and grow!



cool boon~~~ always cool XD



Finally, i've managed to somehow master the skills he taught me. Thanks A Gu! ^0^ Had a great game last night, and i really exhaust myself coz when i got home, my right arm is tingling, hahahahahaha. Probably because i fell on my right elbow.

but cannot see at here la~~~ looks ok but it hurts T.T

Dad's Birthday

It was 3rd of April and it's dad's birthday. Mum asked me where to eat since it's kinda late when mum just got back from her work. " Um, i feel like eating grills, hahaha" i said. And so, there we go, eating grills at Jing wood restaurant near 2020.

We waited for the grills to be served and it took about an hour until they finally served them, haha, it's because it's too crowded that night. So everyone ordered kueh tiaw except me. I only want to eat grill, i think i'm a single minded person, lol ^0^

And finally, my mixed grill~~~~

Hehehehe..... hungry? =P

Dad and Yek Yek ordered chicken chops and mum didn't ate, she only ate kueh tiaw. That night we had a great time talking around, especially about Yek Yek's basketball careers, haha... And we finish ate around 10 something then go home. =) Here's some more pics

HI

Hi, hello, welcome, enjoy, see ya, bye. God Bless.