It's About Me.

It is always about me.
Yeah,
It was always about me.

Whenever, or whatever or however things happened,
The first person that i would look at,
is me.

What was i doing?
What am i gonna do with it?
When i'm gonna do it?
How am i gonna do it?

The only person that would be blamed is me.
I made contribution to consequences,
I made the call to take the action,
I made the choice to pick my reaction.
It was me.

I'm not a perfect christian.
neither am i a good son of His.
I'm not a good student.
that goes for being a musician too.

But every day,
i kept telling myself,
whatever you do, you are making a choice.

So the question is,
Did i do something that came from a good choice of reaction?

What is christian?
Don't tell me.
Ask yourself when the challenge comes.

这里是什么地方？

这里，是什么地方？
看似我分享的空间，我却有话不能说
这究竟是我的部落格吗？

The White Towel

I want things to be the way it were
I want my head to be on track again
I want to feel no pain anymore
I don't want to care what or whatsoever  you're thinking anymore.
I want myself back!

That's IT.
No more waiting.

I have decided.
NO more of this.
I am going to end it. RIGHT NOW.

多分私は臆病者午前、しかし、私はちょうど負担になるしたくない   .......

Free Falling

Recently..

Felt very disturbed.

Couldn't sleep well

Couldn't concentrate

Couldn't snap myself out

I keep asking

What should i do?

But i never got a real answer for that

How i wish..

There's a sky

Where i could just..

Free fall from it.

And hope God catches me in the end

"Free Fallin" from John Mayer

First Call

第一张听的english CCM music。

它，在我成长的路上，占了很多的角色。

记得那时候，我刚踏入中学，刚信主。

喜爱音乐，喜欢听卡带的感觉。

于是，随便翻了大姑的收藏。

这就是我们的邂逅。

他们的歌陪了我很久，

他们的歌词和信息伴随我直到今天。

其中让我留最多眼泪的，就是evidence of love.

或许，对一些人来说，好像古董了点。哈哈

这证明，我是老人～

......

当事情的牵连度比我想象中还要的复杂的时候

我，静了一下。

如果，我忍痛地牺牲，能够避免未来朋友们的纠纷，我...好像会愿意。

只是，我不敢决定。

因为我，不想擅自决定..

告诉我，你会希望我怎么做..？

Lu,siapa？

虽说，我的部落格不是热门类型的。

但，它的counter转过一轮。

现在已经是 9999+6000多= 我数学不好～

其实，我时常会好奇，究竟，

你们是谁？

很想知道，贡献我那条counter的是谁

很想知道，那个按like和dislike的是谁

很想知道，我写的话，情绪，谁在看？

很想知道，每次你阅读这里，是什么心情？

哈哈～～

请问.....你是谁？

解读不到的讯息。

To decrypt this message use http://infoencrypt.com/

AkH/01mP9z9VNIMn2mTaPxq8jdQOXgUB0KSnDlmfqWN1nP/PtTFoVRSGoXecXKAB8UIIEbm1f8qweJ4c

dg4LCq/ddwKLUVF0Zy+sV4vXcnCxsleRx/PwfHXi1C/+DUSvk+LIghmbUiQGG3xbptlbeXJT8HeOtCPn

37HVT3eMLyyyI8DHbyv1RhRx5KAYd8nl63ATpOIigafrOdPRIqitFvDXXh7COXSvmxr3oWD3mOu0r03T

sU8Ikykn3mtAdivRFHRS6m5JjUEBlOkrYOohN7gefPwoHzqNZHRYsmAKQGRw8fg5s1dGeHL6L3dV0Azq

hQL0aHEZGDN4q2dpXo+hr2j6Dh1Cz7X3QCI+entJ6BcTACWEZ5epMTxXHAxblOFxFKZ2RyODRIJBn5EG

AUEbf4tWUSQ2w+Es7hGczGI/vbn9L5pyxFbI9mjlZi42EGuTbsiYlbGLywSbRY63FjMwHUdOCdkr+NRr

31hTXtpLjfo4EwjeSk2l5x4T/Qatz62/zO93R8GkBmgmKOPv7pLjHxwp+sHhXnzuUpG0PViruFByDf9Z

1i0XOlYYBpELutRPp1GmWpMbCtDL4LPIEixHGO8h04KmgrnTsaE675L1/THc/Z+ZjbU+jZKt8XZQ424U

V5V8TiLrfUYtyIUO8hdXgl5EHgnTUxYO1oCzdat76rP3ypBzPzp9xzp4lLPSw2AejmPJ4+PcEE6hxCS/

IvsYLUGR2ks0Y1+yMZuHGVBiAq3thnTaV68NIxj+iVafjc8Gq38/RSQday1FnbjifeL9INgp+/YVWhlG

ZLZJd+1indvJpi+NNlts4crOuvHCwdw7mRCFEANW++QYUippwcmJMol2yVNmWreIEfeoDrytTNHC9dua

aTz6pHU2AUEonVLKltApZJpdyD7u2CgJ0nYzdK5SFNYUAZpHxKL4ug2ys9U2Y/jVbWigTlQKwu+DfOhZ

TOsdnZ2U/DFvNEb8rQYbmOSA+OGaBjd9plGMfIl9Ziowuhs0aZS8wVjqaV907c66sg7LyLDcKyNhOqVF

BsJd0kaVgRMTJIaH2VIcDn4RDqjrWGrknNy3lIRPfBg/ifPgsJxfjBcO3znMwPnRUpOYFk/vjI/f9pWG

tz6xnBNXZO2M1tQ8kW3rce0EXT8TC0Rjl/AothlvLlEWpEBZOEde7d1QAlbgjeRDazryMU41363VnudK

x7Wu0tKBcH8uwp6fxvYzUZgIvR9meiPBtnz4kdics0ot5/p+TN9Bmi5D7NzC16XiK7Y2cGd/NrGoEOaf

/xATYCLuwBiSlM0svmryTQxYX2WnU2BycBq036L5y1xiGry2jDuOtgGCDWQlurnqt/1D/LN82NqKbeCZ

JIP+pBSZ8+pJM4z9yEuQ1bEKRo8=

我的日文～

话了一段短短的时间，用华语翻译找出来的日文～ 就是这一句～ 请用繁体翻译

毎日なら、私はあなたが笑って見ることができます、し、それなら、私は毎日天国にいる

Worship. My Life.

敬拜上帝是我一生中，

最快乐，最幸福，最自在，最感动，最被释放，最有意义，最在乎的事。

上帝往往都在诗歌中触摸我，医治我，提醒我，祂爱我。

My Life is a Worship Life. My Worship is for My Greatest GOD in Heaven.

Watched Over

It's been a while since i'd actually talked alone to God.

Today, i tried again.Getting rid of tiredness, or any excuses. It wasn't easy, yeah.

It's like you're walking in a maze, plain walls, dusted floor, and between you & getting out, it's like forever.

I haven't quit if you asked. I don't really know why to be honest...perhaps it's the promise i've ask from my Father?
" Father, i'm willing to serve You with all i have. And for that i'll walk the path that You chose best for me to serve. Let it be tough as You see fit. But for all, i ask only that You'll never release me away from You..."

Life is challenging ever since.

I think i'm blessed. Cos my Lord watched over me. He sends me into fire and storms when i'm fit, He hugs and carries me when i worn out. My Saviour, My Friend, My Father, My Light, My Peace, My GOD

人看不见，神看得见。

有一种泪，是人看不见，但神看得见的..
有一种爱，是人看不见，但神看得见的..

我看不见，但，请你记得上帝看得见..

带路。

走了很久，
hold on了很久，
黑暗的风洞终于看见光线。

我走了那么久，
我想了那么久，

终于，颜色开始回来了。

其实，从来都不是乌云，
只是我走进了隧道，
看不到了阳光。

不过，也因为这样，
我了解黑暗的嘘声
我明白黑暗的寂寞

与至于，我可以进去带路。